On becoming what I hate...

I first started blogging when I was in college. I'd always enjoyed both reading and writing, and since I was both stupid and opinionated I figured blogging was a great (read: FREE) way to put my opinions out there for the world to see. More seriously, I deeply desired to use blogging, as well as any kind of writing given my gifts in these areas, as a platform to disseminate the truth of God's Word, especially regarding issues which I feel are under heavy attack by the Enemy today.

That blog became defunct rather quickly as college got in the way. Last September, after much fanfare to friends and colleagues, I launched this blog. And it, too, quickly fizzled out. I have posted a grand total of five times this year, two less than when I started, and most of them in February. 

This is exactly the kind of blog I hate. And I've become it, shamelessly.

No, not shamelessly. Frustratedly. I work from home. Heavens, I blog for a living (don't ask). One would think I would find the time to blog regularly, with profit. But as with many things, I struggle to finish what I start. I;m not sure if this is always and everywhere a sin, but it does certainly make things harder. 

I'm not sure where to go from here, and it's not exactly like I can ask folks to pray for me, since I have almost no readers! But I simply must try to do better, be disciplined in my work and personal study so I have things to share on the blog here. Hopefully the Lord will allow me to build and audience and have an online community of whatever size with which to share His Truth, for His glory and their joy.

Why Am I Only Posting Once a Month?

It seems to ever be my lot in life that I am never happy with my blog layout. Long before I ever had an inkling of a desire to actually slap my own thoughts out on the Internet for all these strangers and all two of my dedicated friends to read, I was mesmerized by the fancy-shmancy artistic feasts bloggers like the Pyromaniacs or...well, mostly just them, since a lot of the blogs I read had little in the way of aesthetics. Such is the curse of being literary and visual-artsy, I suppose. Ah, well...we all have our crosses to bear.

Anyway, to that end I was tweaking my layout a bit this afternoon (detailed readers will note the changes! First one to pick them all out in a comment gets a cookie!), and I just noticed that I have managed to post only once a month for two of the three month the blog has been live (November was the massive, nutty record of two).

I realized with great disgust and horror (well, not really) that I have become one of those bloggers I hate --  you know, the kind that opens a blog and posts some really good things, then you check in and you realize their last post was six months ago, with no explanation. I have met the enemy, and he is me. (At least he has rockin' hair.)

Not that I have an audience to whom I am accountable, but I guess the reason I have not been blogging much is because I am realizing how hard it is to think of things to write. It isn't that I don't have ideas -- I do -- it's just that I am finding it harder than I had anticipated to get the visuals and snippets of coherence out of my head and onto the screen. It is hard to know how to intro, what to put where, how to get precise points across...to capture everything in my heart and put it out there for the edification of people and the glory of our great God.

Well. Christmas is coming. And I do tend to get inspired and nostalgic around the holidays...

{Case in point: I am finally working on my second novel, and this one is actually capable of going somehwrre. With my favorite characters ever. Seriously, I'm telling you...something about Christmastime. :)}

I'm baaack...

Hey everyone!

So...do you know how perfectly awful it is to be without a laptop for basically a whole month? My last post was on October 4, and my laptop died about a week later. Since then, I have used my iPhone for nearly everything (I wish it were a person so I could use all sorts of loving platitudes, hug it, take selfies with it...all out of gratitude and to embody the bonding we've experienced over the last month), with a little bit of my mother's laptop thrown in.

I ordered a lovely new HP laptop, smaller than my old one, with Windows 8, on Saturday and it arrived today! So now I can blog again!

Except not today.

I have book editing to do, letters to write, possible shopping...but I won't be gone long. I promise!

“May the Lord watch between you and me when we are absent one from another" (Genesis 31:49, NKJV).